“What does a kept woman mean?”
My mother was taken back. She didn’t expect that question
from a six year old. I instantaneously knew I must’ve asked something which I
was not supposed to. I have my ways around it. I smiled cheekily.
“Where did you hear that one, my pearl?” My mother tried to
lighten the moment. At least she was not escaping it. “Why was that word
spoken? What was the auspicious occasion of context?” I could feel the tangy
sarcasm.
“Grandma told that your friend Nagaveni is a kept woman. She
is a man eater. She hunts married men down.” To be honest I liked Nagaveni. She
was a school teacher. She always was impeccably dressed and attired. There was
an aura of class and style about her. She was not my mother’s close friend as
such. But they did chat a lot. I doubt whether they discussed any of their
personal matters.
It was the town gossip that Nagaveni was seeing Panduranga,
her colleague and much married man.
“Does she look like a hunter to you? Does she have claws and
canine teeth? Where is her arrow and bow?” My mother had a smile in her face
when she fired those questions.
“Why are you asking me this? I am only relaying what grandma
had said. You don’t have to be all that bitter?” I retorted.
My mother burst in to a loud laughter. She was still pouring
the decoction off the filter as she spoke. “Are you enjoying your papaya, young
man?” She had that twinkle in her eyes. I loved it when she had that twinkle.
It meant that she was about to say something very deep. Something which didn’t
make any sense then. But I was told I shall understand the true meaning of it
when I grow up.
“I am loving it. It is lovely. Sweet and ripe.” I was biting
in to the fruit holding it in my both hands.
“Why do you deserve that fruit? It was not grown in your
garden. You didn’t buy it from the grocers. You just got it given by aunt
Padma.”
“Yes. Aunt Padma likes sharing things. She had surplus growth
of fruits this season. She always gives them away. Papayas, Jackfruits and even
coconuts.”
“Exactly. Why is it different when it comes to the fruits of
love? Panduranga has surplus love. His wife Mangala could not cope with it all.
So he had to give it away to Nagaveni.” My mom was pouring the coffee in to the
silverware. She lifted her eyes up to look at me and gauge my reaction.
I kept staring at her not been able to make any sense of it
all. Looking at my blank confused face my mother just burst in to another
laughter.
“You will understand it all my
pearl. You will when time is right.” She dismissed the topic there.
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
“That’s your avocado salad, Su” Carey was all smiley that
morning.
“Thanks Carey. I have a friend coming up in a minute. She is
a friend from work. Can I have my cake when she gets here please?”
“Sure you can.” Carey disappeared in to the kitchen.
As I was enjoying my avocado salad I saw Naomi barging in to
the café. I waved at her and she walked towards my table.
“You look radiant Nu… What have you done to yourself luvvie?
Is that Australian offer again?” I asked her as she was settling down. Noami was
contemplating a bg move to Autralia.
She ordered her coffee and cake. “I am in love Su. I wanted
to tell you this myself in person.”
I kept staring at her and then smiled. “Brilliant…. See I told
you it will happen. Tell me all about it.”
“Promise me you won’t judge me. You know the guy I am
seeing. It’s been going on for almost two months now. Only now we have decided
to come out clean with it.”
“Nu…. Why am I getting this feeling? Who is it?” That
feeling of something not right. I got it intuitively.
“Peter….” Naomi blurted it out.
“Peter? Maggie’s Peter? For heaven’s sake Nu… they are
married.” I was in shock when I said those words.
“I know. He is not happy with Maggie. We happened to be out
and about before Christmas. Maggie was working. Peter and I were drunk and we
ended up together at my place…. I know it was wrong. But I always had feelings
for this guy. Then he told me that he was not happy with Maggie and they were
together only for the children’s sake.”
“But Nu… Maggie was your best friend. They have children
together.” I felt as if I sounded like my grandma…. I could hear my mind
shouting ‘kept woman’ and ‘man eater’.
But I was not my grandmother. I want to be like my mother.
May be Peter has surplus love which has to be shared.
“Peter is going to tell Maggie about it. Trust me Su… I love
this man. I have never been happier in my life then in last two months. I have
decided not to take that offer in Australia after all.”
“What if he is playing Nu? Men are pigs. I know. I am a man
and I know my men. I am not getting nice feeling about all this Nu. I am happy
that you got to feel love. I am sure it is amazing feeling. But under the circumstances
it comes with a big price to pay.”
“I know Su.. I know…. I remember you were involved with
Steve when he was still with Andy.”
“Yes… and I paid for it. Didn’t I? Steve left me for Martin.
Men like that are pigs. We are emotional fools. Doormat Syndrome!”
“But Peter is not like that Su.” Naomi was very confident
about her love.
“Whatever Nu…. I want you to be
happy.” We departed after the cake. That left me shaken. Naomi gently did point
out that I was a ‘kept man’ myself once.
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“Did you hear what happened Amma…. Panduranga has left
Mangala. He is living with Nagaveni now.” I remember that sunny evening when I
had come from my bicycle ride. Vishnu my friend who was the neighbours of
Panduranga and Mangala had told me the news. I tried to explain him about
surplus fruit theory but failed miserably.
“Hmmm….. Does it make any difference to you?” My mother was
clearly didn’t want to talk further.
“But I thought it was about sharing. Why couldn’t both
Mangala and Nagaveni share the love? Vishnu says Mangala is going to her father’s
village with the baby. The baby is only three months old. Grandma was right
Nagaveni after all is a man eater.”
“Little pearl…. Somethings in life are complicated… You will
never understand it now. I think we need to do something about you watching
those stupid dramatic films with your grandma. You are becoming one judgemental
idiot. You will perceive these things better when you have lived your life.”
“Whatever….” I was not interested in that affair anymore.
I heard Mangala moved with the
baby to her father’s village. After a short period even Panduranga who was a
school teacher took transfer to Bangalore city and Nagaveni joined him. They faded
in to my distant memory.
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It was not before three months I heard from Naomi. I tried
to avoid both Naomi and Maggie. Escapist coward like me was avoiding the
situation of taking sides. I didn’t know whose side I was supposed to take.
That is the problem faced by the mutual friends in the situations like this. I
know morally I should be taking Maggie’s side. But I myself had been in Naomi’s
situation before. I didn’t have any moral grounds.
I met Naomi at my regular haunt The Avacado Café that Sunday
afternoon. Her text read that she wants to meet me before she moved to
Australia. It said that it will be helpful if she could see me before she left.
I sort of felt guilty myself not keeping in touch for three months. Then she
had her life complicated and she had to sort it herself.
As she walked in I could not believe what I was seeing. She
was shadow of her former self. She had lost lot of weight and not in a good
way. She looked exhausted and very miserable. She looked depressed.
“You alright Nu? Sorry I was not been able to keep in touch…
It was just that…” I was trying to explain her when she cut me off..
“It’s okay Su… I understand….” She continued as she had
tears in her eyes which she was trying hard to hide. ”You were right Su….. I am
the other woman after all.”
The she explained how the affair ended. Peter came out clean
to Maggie about the affair. There were hard quarrels and words exchanged. Once
initially anger settled down, Maggie somehow convinced Peter to stay in their
marriage for the sake of children. That always hits the bull’s eye. No wonder
women go to the extent of getting pregnant to keep their men.
“You know what Su… after all this I feel Peter is a pig. He
made me feel like a whore. I was a kept woman after all. Damn… Thankfully I
still had the job offer from Australia. I just put my house in the market. My
mother will look after the sale procedures. If not for their support I would
have been a broken woman.”
She was leaving for Australia in couple of weeks’ time. I hugged her, wished her all the luck. Poor
lady…she needed that. I could feel her pain as she walked away from the café. I
hoped she was walking towards better life.
I could not stop but dialling my mother immediately. I
needed answers. I think I have grown enough and have seen enough life to seek
answers about Nagaveni.
“Amma… You remember Nagaveni, the teacher who eloped with
Panduranga…. What happened to them?”
My mother had hard time remembering it after good thirty
five years. But she eventually did after some prompting.
“Little Pearl….. After Mangala died of cancer, Nagaveni and
Panduranga took in Mangala’s five year old son. Nagaveni never had children of
her own. She looked after the son very well. I doubt whether he even remembers
his mother that well. He refers Nagaveni as his own mother. Panduranga is no
more. He died five years ago. Nagaveni is enjoying her retirement looking after
their grandchildren. Everything ended well.”
I was left speechless. Life has strange ways of unfolding
things….
I just hoped Naomi too had a happy ending like Nagaveni.
